Won't you ever come back and say,
Come let's go..
You've waited so long..
But not anymore

Silence

I close my eyes. I hear the sounds I've never paid attention to. I hear the rustle of leaves, noise of the fan,I hear the footsteps of people walkin' past me, I hear people talking, laughing, crying and amid all this I see You...My heart skips a beat..all sounds fade away. 

I open my eyes..nothing but silence prevails. I don't hear the beating of my heart anymore.

 Silence haunts... Sept 27,2008

“I want what I miss,
the memories and stories,
the life we could share.”

Tyler Knott

Drowning

Everything's falling apart,
As life falls away
into the dark..
You'll never get to know
what I hide
behind this nonchalant facade..
Still holding on to my hopes
As distant dreams crash
at the shore..
Trying to find my way back,
gazing at the fading stars..

Wasted life, wasted love

My fault : I believed
The truth : You lied
Your love : A mystery, an illusion
My gift : Heartache for life..

Meaningless Life

I wonder what am I going to do with rest of my life. For me, life is just a four-letter word; built on heaps of broken dreams, tormented hopes, lost chances and regrets... though there are no chances of you coming back.. But at times I think, would that even make any difference now? Would that take away the years long anguish, bitterness, pain, from inside of me?

Today

Today was just one of those days where everything I did reminded me of you and every song I heard somehow related to you. I hate days like today, because they remind me of the one thing I don't have.And my life is full of such todays.

A million words would not bring you back, I know because I've tried, neither would a million tears, I know because I've cried. Wanting you is hard to forget,loving you is hard to regret, losing you is hard to accept, but even with all the hurt I've felt, letting go is the most painful yet...

"Life doesn't hurt you until you've time to yourself to think about how things have changed, who you've lost along the way, and how much of it is your fault."
And it hurts like anything, when you know all of it is entirely your fault...

Strange connection..

The strongest bond I've ever had, is with someone who doesn't even feel the "pull" anymore.. who doesn't know he's still the center of my world.. Life didn't give us a chance to meet..... It was a fairy tale i ruined with my very own hands...

Thought you'd stay..

Thought you'd stay,
Like the sky above my head, Like earth beneath my feet..
Your words defined my fate,
A mere crack on the surface, Open wounds underneath..
And so it turns out,
Half your lies I've swallowed, Half they've swallowed me..

She's smiling... but she doesn't mean it. She misses how they use to be... she misses how it was so real how they cared for each other without end but most of all, she misses him always being there and telling her everything will be okay because she need's that now, more than ever. She's sick of feeling like something's missing.


"Sometimes things can seem so perfect, and then in a split second. It all comes and blows back up in your face, making you remember, that nothing ever works out for you. Something always fucks up your "perfect thing". "

I've been struggling to name this feeling, have never been so unsure..as life treads on minutes, I struggle to tether the threads of friendship and love that were tattered in one thoughtless moment.. Life’s contained in that very moment..  

"You want to know how I got all these scars? See, I ripped every last piece of you out of my smile."

Stale air saturated with bleak memories,
Those which felt so sweet once,
Nothing so acrid I've come across,
Your merciless heart, my love shunned,
Nonchalance of your tone in the final hours,
I misread it for a happy end,
Fobbed in something you claimed as love,
Each word you uttered leaves me in delirium...

We are here, me and you..are we really ourselves?
This air feels heavier than metal.
It's not that we were always like this...

The moment I took you for granted...I've become what I  never wanted to be..

End of the Story

Your whispers fade away in the silence,
In these dead corners of my heart whining wishes sink,
Dampening with the sound of your footsteps, as you walk away...
No Hope
No Desire..
No Morning Sun
No Moonlight...
Bland as they could be; my days my nights
I'm left
With all my ugliness..
Waiting to be penned down,
Turned Over,
Burned Out
Laughed At...

My Life in these pages: A Closed Chapter...A Forgotten Book