Kia badla ha there janay se-Mamu

Kuch bhi badla nahi

Tere chalay janay se

Sirf ye k

Dil hi janay kaise chal rahi hai

Rookhi zindagi dagmagati chaal

Jo sath le k chalti nahi

Rokna chahoon Tau rukti nahi

Chahoon k pakar loon akhri baar

Na janay doon dubiya k us Paar

Yehi Dua hai bus nahi aur koi

Mangti hoon.. poori hoti nahi

Dil hi janay kese chal rahi hai...

Shutting ourselves down after betrayal is so much more painful than the pain we imagine we will receive by opening up!

Dear Ammi

Devastating..
Sinking in the ever-deepening void
I want to reach for your hand..
Tried shutting my mind
How do I tell you
In how many ways do I miss you
Smudges on your picture
Of  kisses and tears
This heart--- full of despair
Nothing assuages the pain
Distraught thoughts in the head
This life makes no sense
Wish you could talk back ,
In your words I found solace

Seems impossible to get up now

When hope is lost
And life is nothing but dismay

You and I

You and I,
Together
A figment of my imagination
An image
In the fragments of my heart
I'm a character
non-existent,
Not anywhere in your future
Neither in your present nor in your past
I was there all the time,
With a heart full of love
I'm still standing here
Unnoticed or maybe Ignored
Currents pass over 
But my love's such an anchor
It takes me back to you
And we become one
A figment of my imagination.
An echo of my heart

I'm afraid I'm getting tired.. 
Tired of praying..
 Of thinking about what seems impossible.. 
Tired of waiting for you.. 

Of believing one day you'll know

Why don't I hate you

Why I love getting bruised
Maybe that's what you call love..
Inflicting yourself with wounds ..
I'm walking on the shards of my heart..
Winning the losing battle

Things that don't cost a penny yet they mean the world to you..

Just knowing that I cross your mind when you see something nice.. Or experience something good that you wish you could share with me, would be more than anything I could ever ask for myself.
I don't need to hear the flattering words that make a girl feel good about herself. I don't want any fancy gifts as a proof of your love for me. I don't ask you for a long embrace to feel your touch, your presence... I don't want all your time for myself.. I don't want you to forget everything else in the world, your dreams your plans your family your friends..

A call from you, just to hear my voice or wanting to talk to me about all the little things and the big things that your day comprised of, would hold more meaning than you calling me when you feel there's nothing better to do..

Showing up just coz you know nothing in the world could make me happier than seeing your face..

Dedicating just a few seconds of your time to share my silence and understand my emotions...

Looking into my eyes and getting lost in my world is the only time I want the world around us to disappear..

Reading the fears I hide and easing them away just by taking my hand in yours, is the only reassurance I need.

I wish there were a way for me to tell you how you make my heart skip a beat everytime I hear your voice. I don't know how to explain the feeling when your mouth utters my name.. I wish I could show you the extent of my love.. I wish you could know you won't find a better place than my heart to stay..

How do I tell you I feel like the richest girl in the world when I see you wearing smile and the reason is me. For me, your smile alone is worth more than all the gold, diamonds, stones and wealth of the world combined. I crave to hear the sound of your laughter. I've never known any sound that could take me away into another world, but the sound of your laughter.

28th September, 2015

You're the sweet torture I've chosen for myself.. The slow poison that runs through my veins..
The magic spell that doesn't let me sleep
The recurring nightmare I wish I never cease to see..